3 days left........

It's very close to my test now and in my heart of hearts I feel I am as ready to go play as I've ever been. I'm very proud of the way I've dedicated myself to preparing for this and all areas seem to be at a standard now where even if I perform poorly, I should still pass (hopefully). Obviously thursday will be the proper acid test and a big fat pass will be the proof of the pudding.

The forecast is for a bit of rain which is unfortunate although, providing I can hold my clubs ok, could be a good omen as I have been known to play well in poor conditions before. Also, it may serve as a welcome distraction (in a twisted way) from the pressure of the event and slightly difuse the intensity of it.

Although this may sound negative, I have fullly prepared myself for another failure (how could I not!) but am truly not expecting it. I have improved so much from last year and would like to think that I now have the experience to cope with whatever comes my way on the day. I know that if it ends badly then again I will be able to take a lot from it and of course will be straight back on the horse (after licking my wounds for a couple of days). My only real concern is the nerves I know i'll have, particularly towards the end of the day regardless of how i'm doing. This will serve me well to keep me focused and I have learned breathing techniques to help me cope with it, but the thought of it still makes me slightly uneasy.

I played in a comp at the weekend and the 72 I shot was a very promising sign of what I could expect on thurs as I hit the ball relatively poorly! To do that and shoot +1 is very exciting for me as feel that if I can peak thursday I may exceed even my own exectations.

That, for now, is all I can say on this matter. The time for talking and speculation is over as I know that it is totally irrelevant when I tee it up thursday. Time to perform methinks.

Wish me luck........